Not sure where to post Christmas as it is just a miserable time of year for everything - loneliness, spending money you don't have on people you don't like and just general depression. If I could have anything this Christmas, I would ask that Christmas is cancelled.
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Cancel it then
It sounds like you have no interest in the routines of Christmas, and that you get lonely at this time of year. Are you lonely because nobody's around? Or is it because plenty of people are around but you dislike most of them and feel their gifts are insincerely given, etc.?
In either case, it sounds as though Christmas would be a great time for you to hit the road. Go on a holiday (that you can afford) and just forget that Christmas is even happening. Nobody will feel a need to give you presents and you won't need to give any either (especially to people you don't like).
You might still feel a bit lonely but at least you'll be busy doing something.
Just a suggestion.
Christmas is over now and I
Christmas is over now and I guess we all survived!
X-mas over
Survived is a good word. Just need to pluck all the inner power in order to get ready for the next one. It's fairly soon, just less than a year!!! So no time to relax. I don't know, every year I look forward to Christmas and New Year and every time something really unpleasant happens in my life and I feel even lower than usual. Is it true that during the holiday time the suicide rate doubles if not triples? I felt like finishing with this life once and forever.
You already said that you
You already said that you are putting into play the strength needed to get through this year and survive the next Christmas. Why spike the non Christmas stats for suicide and try and find some hope and joy, it can be tough, it is tough, but somehow we usually find a chink of light in the darkest corners. I just hope you do too ;-)